Transfer #3

It's that time, embryo transfer #3. I had to make a call to the on call RE this morning. I start meds tomorrow, estrogen tablets 2mg twice a day & estrogen patches every 3 days starting tomorrow. I have to call back Monday to schedule a delayed baseline ultrasound since AF showed at the worst possible time (on a Friday night) and the office was closed for the weekend. I have been so anxious today anticipating this whole cycle. After my baseline ultrasound this week I will go back in 2 more weeks for a midcycle ultrasound then start progesterone injections daily until transfer day which I anticipate will be around the 19th or 20th. I have had 4 months off now... no appointments, no meds, and no stress related to this whole process. I dread transfer day because I honestly do no believe this one remaining embryo is going to make it through thaw. Last transfer we lost 4 embryos during thaw, and the two that we did have transferred weren't looking strong, and obviously didn't make it either. So losing 6 embryos doesn't give me high hopes for this one. I wish I could just know... but I have to go through pills, patches, shots for weeks and the anxiety of the build up to that day before we will know for sure. Maybe since I'm expecting a letdown this time I will be surprised, I always pray for a miracle.

Snow Beautiful

We got one of the most beautiful snows that I've seen in a while.

Home sweet home

The snow so beautiful on the trees

Chickie tracks

Our hound dog, Levi loves the snow!

Forever in our hearts.

We lost our sweet Marley boy. The only peace I have is knowing he is no longer experiences any pain or suffering. He had such a sweet soul.... see you in heaven sweet boy.

The plan... (For now at least)

Been doing a lot of thinking about our upcoming FET in March & I'm getting scared & nervous. Most of all im excited to jump back into trying again because I'm more scared of not doing anything. Although 3 months of not doing anything has been exactly what I needed both emotionally & physically. I didnt realize the toll all those meds were taking on my body until they were out of my system. For the past year I had been on some type of infertility drug. I'm praying so hard this cycle is a success but we have realistic expectations now with all the failures we have had & I feel like emotionally I'm more prepared this go round. If this cycle is a bust we have decided to finish out our 2 remaining IVF attempts this year before moving on with an adoption agency. After all, we did pay for a shared risk program & we may as well give it our all. I'm excited at what this year may bring... It will either bring me a healthy pregnancy & baby or I will have final closure on this chapter before we move on. Either way most of all I hope to keep peace knowing that whatever happens is meant to be & I will get through it.