This baby is a miracle

I want to cherish all the little details, every single moment.

With mine and hubby's chaotic schedules some weeks it can be difficult to find the time to spend any real quality time together. This past week he worked six 12 hour nights and on his one day off he worked around the house. The mornings are usually our time to catch up with each other and talk about how our day/night went.

Last night we both worked so we both arrived home this morning at about the same time got into bed at about the same time and layed there just talking and spending time as a family. It feels so good to say that... "A family".

It took what seemed like forever before Chris ever got to feel our boy kick and until today he still had not seen how active our little guy is. And this morning Grayson was very active. We both sat and stared at our boy (my belly) moving around in amazement. It's time like these I'll never get back, and I don't want to ever forget. Tears fall from my eyes at the thought of how fast time flies and how so completely and totally in love I am with this miraculous baby that is growing inside me.

We talked this morning about how bittersweet time is... All you want is to see your baby grow yet at the same time all I want is for time to stand still. And I know that once he's outside my womb that feeling will be even more profound. I am so thankful for all our hardships, heartbreaks and all our struggles concieving this boy. Because of all that we endured I will cherish every little moment. I am a better mother because of what we've endured. Until there is no breath left in my body I will love this little guy with all that I have in me. On those nights when I have no sleep I will thank God for it. On those days when I am overwhelmed I will thank God for it. And I pray that I always remember how special and how blessed I am even through the trying times, the sleepless nights, the temper tantrums and teenage years I want to remember that this baby is a miracle!