Tuesday, October 27, 2015

This baby is a miracle

I want to cherish all the little details, every single moment.

With mine and hubby's chaotic schedules some weeks it can be difficult to find the time to spend any real quality time together. This past week he worked six 12 hour nights and on his one day off he worked around the house. The mornings are usually our time to catch up with each other and talk about how our day/night went.

Last night we both worked so we both arrived home this morning at about the same time got into bed at about the same time and layed there just talking and spending time as a family. It feels so good to say that... "A family".

It took what seemed like forever before Chris ever got to feel our boy kick and until today he still had not seen how active our little guy is. And this morning Grayson was very active. We both sat and stared at our boy (my belly) moving around in amazement. It's time like these I'll never get back, and I don't want to ever forget. Tears fall from my eyes at the thought of how fast time flies and how so completely and totally in love I am with this miraculous baby that is growing inside me.

We talked this morning about how bittersweet time is... All you want is to see your baby grow yet at the same time all I want is for time to stand still. And I know that once he's outside my womb that feeling will be even more profound. I am so thankful for all our hardships, heartbreaks and all our struggles concieving this boy. Because of all that we endured I will cherish every little moment. I am a better mother because of what we've endured. Until there is no breath left in my body I will love this little guy with all that I have in me. On those nights when I have no sleep I will thank God for it. On those days when I am overwhelmed I will thank God for it. And I pray that I always remember how special and how blessed I am even through the trying times, the sleepless nights, the temper tantrums and teenage years I want to remember that this baby is a miracle!

Thursday, October 1, 2015

22 weeks

I haven't updated here throughout my pregnancy as much as I wish I had. Already more than halfway through my pregnancy, we will be holding our little guy before we know it.

The first trimester was exciting yet very uncomfortable. I pretty much felt like crap the entire time. No energy and constant nausea. Once I hit about 13 weeks I felt like a new person and had it not been for the growing bump I would not have even felt pregnant.

My second trimester has been amazing and I'm loving being pregnant. At 15 weeks we found out we are having a baby boy and I started to feel tiny flutters. We have named our boy Grayson Samuel. Chris felt him move at 20 weeks and now at 22 weeks the movements are really strong. Some days I think if this keeps getting stronger as we go along these kicks might become painful. He has some powerful little kicks. Every time I feel him I get this overwhelming feeling of joy like I've never felt before I came to love this little boy. I've gained a total of 15 pounds so far and the past few days have felt lots of stretching and pulling going on in my abdomen. And my skin already feels so tight. I can only imagine the changes my body still has to go through. I'm so amazed by the changes that have already taken place. As I sit and type this post he is kicking and moving all around. I just paced my hand on my tummy and could see my hand move from his kick. I am so in tune to every little twinge, kick, stretch, pulling going on.

I honestly am going to miss this so much as much as I can't wait to have him in my arms sometimes I already want to be pregnant again... Then some times I think I don't want anymore babies I want to give all my love to him and give him the best of everything. No matter what the future holds for us I'm so overwhelmingly blessed to be pregnant and I have faith that I we will have a healthy boy in a few short months. If I never get to carry another child this will be enough, I'm so thankful.